tag:dreamwidth.org,2026-04-29:4328833 Nelli 🕸 Nelli 🕸 2026-04-30T04:43:03Z tag:dreamwidth.org,2026-04-29:4328833:601 2026-04-30T04:43:03Z 2026-04-30T04:43:03Z public 2 Well, here we are. Midnight, and I’m finally getting to sit down and decompress after a long day of work, running errands for my elderly parents, making dinner, going for a walk at a local state park, and a short session at the gym.<br /><br />While I was toiling over the stove and questioning my life choices (namely, why on earth I agreed to be the primary caregiver to my parents), I had a sudden burst of nostalgia and started remembering an old-school group chat made up of my old LiveJournal friends. I started to pine for that old community we used to have. I know it won’t ever be recreated exactly, but I’m hoping to build something that resembles it here.<br /><br />In between cleaning up and waiting on various sides to finish cooking, this journal was born.<br /><br />In truth, I can’t say I’m the most interesting person. I work full time at my home office job and then have caregiving duties in the evening. I don’t have the time to fully pursue all of my interests with my workload, manage my own chronic illnesses, and somehow find time to sleep (which is sporadic and inconsistent, at best).<br /><br />I think one of my biggest goals for this year is to reconnect with myself and who I was pre-COVID. It disabled both of my parents suddenly and unexpectedly, and they weren’t financially prepared. They moved in, and I lost a lot of what felt authentically me. I know things won’t go back to “normal,” but I have been taking steps, which I feel proud of, honestly.<br /><br />So even if I have to take my walks after dark and hit the gym at midnight, that’s fine. Progress is being made. I’m not letting the regret and depression win. <br /><br />Oh and I’m living for the end of May and July because I DO have some trips planned and already paid for. Just have to stave off the burnout until then.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=beebalm&ditemid=601" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments tag:dreamwidth.org,2026-04-29:4328833:377 2026-04-29T23:52:08Z 2026-04-29T23:52:08Z public 0 I miss the old internet and I miss writing for myself online so I've found myself back here again after over a decade.<br /><br />I'm not sure exactly what this space will be yet, but you're more than welcome to come along for the ride if anything about my page intrigues you.<br /><br />Please drop a little comment here and introduce yourself if you decide to follow. :D<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=beebalm&ditemid=377" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments